Lara,

Around me blossoms
the same spring awakens
wreaking havoc on my life

I’ve kicked the crap out of “merciful God”
I’ve struggled thumbscrews tenderhearted angels
I’ve punched justice in her gravely face
I’ve said to all those blitz words such as:
joy, light, merriment, hope:
go back to your cheerful fellows

As she is laying numb in my arms
I fell her body gone numb and her breath is frozen
with her lips pressed together
in her final breath
the great struggle stiffed her limbs and the black demon left
her stern eyes
the pupil of the eye is spilled over with fog

I wonder if this is my time of death.

In this wasteland –
this seems to be
my life now.

Forgive me I couldn’t write a better poem for you,
for the pain has prevented the birth of worthy verse

No more kitty kisses.

My best friend, my cat Lara passed away in March 28, 3.10 p,, in Belgrade,  from virus Feline panleukopenia.

For Lara

My love
my friend
my kitten

Dream a dream
inside a dream is
a
beautiful dream
an eternal dream

I cast a peace spell on you
Sleep tight my little sleepy head
Smooth sailing through the night,

Close your wide – opened eyes
Your pupils do not belong to
These dark regions

Nowhere to go after this wish so
You all to myself, to dissappear together
In the place lit by some new suns

(Why I did not die instead of you?
You, demon,
Why you did not take me?)

Brightness cracks.
My duration mocks at me
Tomorrow and tomorrow will undergo
I know.
Wearing a poison in unbearable journey
But,
Nowhere to go when I want to get into
The dawn in my kitten’s eyes

I’ll see you again on the horizon
wherein dream prevails
we meet again
and at the end and on the extension of the road

So long
rest my sleeping beauty
sleep with serene Mud Maid’s sleep
on the other side of the eye
glistens your heart vividly

and though I want to assure myself you
went with a smile
my soul cries, I…

I know that death is the wall that separates us
and that life of the dead living is blinding my sight
my reason
my mind
but that is the nature of sorrow
this is the law of the crying mind

Therefore
Calm be in the horizon
Wait for me..
where they sing ancient lullabies
Calm be…
are you running now lively and all rested?
Wait for me…
at the end of the road and on the extension of the times
tomorrow you’ll be hanging out with roses
sleep peacefully
sleep peacefully

night night, my love
night night

Night.